Well..let me start off by saying..happy new year to everyone.  New years eve turned out to be kind of fun.  I mean..of course i didnt get a kiss from that special someone at the stroke of midnight...but i did get to be with my friends..oh and drink a lot of champagne.  All in all it was a good time.  And hey maybe someday ill get another kiss from that special someone.

ass for my resolutions..well i dont have any..ok its not that i dont have any..i just dont believe in making resolutions..especially when no one keeps them.  I think it is just setting yourself up for failure..giving yourself false hopes.  So i know that sounds negative..but i would rather spend my time actually doing things..instead of saying i will.

For instance..i am going to try to focus more on school..and getting a job and saving money.  But instead of making a resolution about it..i am just going to do it

So enough with that..things are going a lot better these days..i am finally seeing thins clearly..and im happy.  I thought i couldnt be happy without a certain someone..but i realized i can..but that doesnt mean i dont still love him.  Of course..im sure i will have to move on from that sometime..but right now i am enjoying being friends with him.  And who knows..someday maybe we will end up together..or maybe i will find someone that i feel even stronger for..but either way..if its meant to be then it will be..and everything will work out in the end.  So..there is my positive outlook on this new year..i hope it stays that way.

Okay..so I have to say a few words about my previous post on November 30.  For anyone who read it...just disregard it.  The whole falling in love part is true...its not all its cracked out to be.  But the rest of it..about how I cant stop loving him or whatever...yes I can stop loving him and I am going to..I am already in the process and it feels great.  I can actually think about other guys now..and man am I boy crazy at the moment.  I feel like im in high school again.  But the thing is..i dont want to just date around and see like 10 different people.  I would actually like to find someone that i can committ to again.

      Now what I want for christmas is just someone to be with...someone who likes me for me.  Thats what i want..well and a french horn but that wont happen.  Oh well...i guess clothes for christmas will do...i always need new clothes.  So anyways...thought i would update on what has been going on with me and my loooove life..or lack there of.  Toodles.

Alright,  so here I am sitting in the library of Capital University.  Why am I here..?  Well, I came up to Westerville to visit my friends Christy and Barry and now I am at Capital with Christy.  I have to say...even though it is a lot smaller than UC...the campus of Captial is pretty nice.  And the houses around here...omg..so beautiful.

    So Im thinking if I ever decide to transfer...which I am thinking about doing...I would defenitley transfer to Capital.  But why would I want to transfer...well I love UC and I love the band but Im just not feeling it anymore.  I need a change...there has been so much drama lately and there are somethings that I just want to get away from.  I mean..why do you think I came up here.

    I have friends up here so I wont be alone...and I can actually focus on  my major instead of getting sidetracked by all the shit that is going on and everything I have to deal with.  I dont know...I would miss the band and some of the people in it.  But I need to do what is going to make me happy.  Sometimes you just need a change..I need to move on..its my time to fly now.

   Im still not sure if I am going to transfer or not...but it is a big possibility in my mind right now.  I just need to try to convince my parents..hehe..yeah right.  But I'll keep you posted on this issue and what not.  Bye for now.